helpthinmeout

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<b> {~}Self Injury and Eating Disorder form{~} </b> both at one time, now just on the verge of one again
<b>1. Name:</b> Annie
<b>2. Age:</b> 29
<b>3. Location:</b> Utah
<b>4. Gender:</b> Female
<b>5. Height:</b> 5'7
<b>6. Current Weight:</b> 187
<b>7. Highest weight:</b> 411
<b>8. Lowest weight:</b> 135
<b>9. BMI:</b>
<b>10. Short term goal (& put date):</b> 160
<b>11. Long term goal (& put date):</b> 125
<b>12. What Eating Disorder do you have?</b> bulimia
<b>13. How long have you had it?</b> off an on for years. Lat time i purged was 3 months ago
<b>14. Do people catch on that you have one?</b> they use to but since my operation i hide it pretty well
<b>15. Have you been diagnosed/do you self-diagnose?</b> been diagnosed
<b>16. What is your favorite bone?</b> hip bone although i can't see it hardly
<b>17. Who/what is your 'thinspiration'?</b> i so desperately want to be thin. The thinner the better. i feel in control of my life and feel like i accomplished something no one else can when i'm thin. i love the comments and event he attention but i HATE people telling me to eat.
<b>18. Have you ever been treated for your eating disorder? </b> no
<b>19. Form of Self Injury:</b> i have scars all over my wrists that i try to hide. I haven't self harmed in 3 years.
<b>20. When was your first time? What did you use?</b> cigarette burned myself
<b>21. Why do you Self Injure?</b> it was cuase i was frustrated with m weight and my life and if i don't get thin again I'm afraid i'll go back to it
<b>22. Where do you most often Self Injure?</b> my stomache with a razor blade and then my wrists...bad scars
<b>23. What do you use?</b> razor blade and cigarettes but not anymore I hope never again
<b>24. Do you hide it?</b> I wear a big watch to hide it and long sleeve shirts
<b>25. Anyone know?</b> hopsital and doctors and a neighbor
<b>26. What are you hoping to get out of this community?</b> hnestly I want to get thin again and I want to help those out there with there desperate feelings when they want to self harm. It is very painful and was a horrible time in my life. I'm not immune to going back to that time. I just want to help as well as get help. I know how to keep secrets and I understand how dsperate we all want to be accepted. I have been there and am still there with my obsession with thinness.
<b>27. Do you sing in the shower?</b>
<b>28. Please post at least ONE (1) picture of yourself:</b>
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I never knew a community like this existed. I was reading through my English text book and i came upon an article that talked about "Fasting girls" I was really interested since I have struggled with my weight for years.
Does Anyone have any tips on losing weight fast? I need some MOTIVATION and some helpful tips on dealing with the hunger pangs of Fasting. Where would i get green tea and what amount of calories should I take in when I fast? How much can I lose in a couple of weeks? Thanks and I admire all of u out there who can successfully fast and lose weight quickly. I know we are not all perfect but you really are strong when u can fast even for a couple of days. This will be my first long fast ever. I have to go study now but if anyone has any tips I would appreciate it...